Sunday, 5 November 2017

What kept me busy all this while?

"My Heart Monster"

It was January 2015 when I started this blog. Though I am no expert writer but I did it with great passion and love, never to abandon it. And today I am back here after almost 5 months. Motherhood took over everything in my life. What a rewarding feeling to hold your baby in your arms, it is no less than bliss.

From a full time working woman, right now I am a full time mom on an extended maternity leave. Motherhood is a roller coaster ride. There are moments of happiness and some lowness too. Babies, they want every molecule, every atom of their mothers, they don’t spare even an inch. You have no free time left for yourself. Sometimes even going to the loo seems like a task to be done. You have to hold on and on and on.

I have faced it all from pregnancy complication in last trimester to post-partum depression, issues with breastfeeding, colic baby all this and more with least amount of support. I think mentally I wasn’t prepared or never gave a thought to how life would be after baby. I was just too happy to see myself pregnant after almost a year of trying to conceive.

Things are more sorted now and I have to just fight the remnants of depression from my life. I have to fight that demon called sadness and do things which make me happy and fulfilled.

I have completely lost track of my life, motherhood overpowered me. And now some serious renovation, designing is needed. I want to regain the strength and confidence which is hidden over layers of laziness and some junk. I need to somehow spare few moments no matter how little to ward off boredom and monotony. I am back to my blog and shall stay.

Well it is almost 12 am and my heart monster shall wake up anytime for mid night feed, shall post more about how I faced post-partum depression on my next post. Stay tuned.

This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda.’

Thursday, 15 June 2017

Colic Baby

Bringing home your newborn is matter of ultimate joy. Nothing is comparable to this feeling of having your baby in your room where you have spent days waiting for him. I had mixed feelings when I brought my baby boy from the hospital.  I had a lot of anxiety mainly because he had physiological jaundice and needed to be exposed to sunlight to the maximum. Gradually his bilirubin level came to normal acceptable range. But then something else was waiting to enter my anxious mind – that was ‘colic’.

My baby would at times cried inconsolable. Our pediatrician diagnosed that it is colic. He prescribed some very mild drops for the baby.  And I had to closely monitor my diet as I was feeding him.

Babies when out of womb undergo still many changes and are exposed to a totally new atmosphere. Their organs are still developing. Digestive system is not mature yet. Therefor colic is something very normal and goes away with time. Usually it takes first 3 months but in my case the baby got relief from colic by the time he was 4 months.

Some very usual symptoms are:-

-          Loud sudden cry, which is difficult to calm.

-          Red face of baby.

-          Disturbed bowel activity.

-          Increase passing of gas or spitting up of milk.

-          May suddenly scream when fast asleep.

Here symptoms may vary from baby to baby.

What calmed by heart monster during that time was “a close contact with me”, the calmer I was the more my baby felt relieved.  

During this time it is very important to keep yourself calm and having lots of patience. It is something which I terribly lacked. I was too worried seeing this happening to my baby. He would wake up screaming.  As I was still recuperating from C- Section delivery, a colicky baby added to my woes. Still it was not enough I had relatives asking me to get my baby thoroughly checked up and I should get and ultrasound done for the same. Such unwanted suggestion tore me apart and gave me sleepless nights.

Any ways I have learned something very important during that time :

-          Motherhood also requires lot of stamina and physical energy other than patience and calmness.

-        Never let negativity overpower you.  You cannot ignore some people but give cold shoulder to their unwanted suggestions.


Tuesday, 25 April 2017

The Matters of Heart

“Your tiny feet stamped my heart

Your glistening eyes, brighten my days

Your smiles and laughters are music of happiness

My tiny angel my heart monster

You rule my life and govern my soul”

Thursday, 23 March 2017

God’s Love is so Wonderful

It’s been a long time. I am posting something today after a very long break.

Past one year has been very tough for me.  Tears sadness and anxieties were my constant companions.

It was the end of Feb 2015 when I had to rush for an emergency USG, what it revealed was shattering for me. Doctor said that he couldn’t detect the fetal heartbeat. My world turned upside down, no words could explain the turmoil my soul went through. I felt empty and lost.

Well with time I managed to gather some strength. Made peace with what happened and reignited the flames of hope and faith. With God’s grace I was again able to conceive within the next two months and then started the roller coaster ride of pregnancy. There were lots of ups and down during the entire tenure of 9 months, I was down with viral fever, some unexpected bleeding and difficulty with keeping track of fetal movements. This was all followed by an emergency C- Section delivery, 3 weeks before the expected date.

And then as we say God’s love is so wonderful, I could really feel it, it was my moment of truth when for the very first time I had my tiny being in my arms.

Just two of us with love and only love around. Nothing is comparable to the feel and touch of your own child.

Life is indeed unexpected. But one thing is for sure have faith and never let it die. Believe in miracles they really happen.

Friday, 20 January 2017

Health with Terra

Health and fitness remains the cornerstone of my family. Anything unhealthy is a big no.  This goes especially for my husband who is a big fitness freak. He prefers organic produce and home cooked food more. And when it comes to snacks he is really fond of baked and roasted food item requiring no or less oil. Sedentary lifestyle is really making all of us unhealthy. With tight office timings and gorging on junk food / snacks is taking toll on our health.

Last month being a full festivity, fun and frolic was as usual the best time of the year. With delectable dishes to relish upon and enjoying the good times with family & friends, festivals in India are really enjoyable. What comes as a side effect is the gift platter full of sweets, oily and fried food in fact everything which is heavy on stomach.

Much to my surprise a day before Diwali I received a wonderful gift pack from Terra Chips, made from real whole vegetables. Good to taste, light on stomach, full of nutrient punch and great aroma, Terra chips are really much awaited product in the present day time of adulteration and everything artificial. This perfect crunchy snack made from real vegetables like – Yuca, Parsnip, Blue Potato (Naturally), Sweet Potato, Batata and Taro, combines beautiful colours and delicious flavours. This pleasant to taste and appetizing snack provides us with Optimum amount of Energy, Protein, carbohydrates, dietary fiber, Vitamin C, Iron & Calcium.

These much organic and made of no artificial product Terra Chips was much liked by my family members.  Present day lifestyle when we are left with no time to enter kitchen and cook, these real vegetable chips is the best option of healthy snacking. Exotic Taste and rich colours add to the delightful munching and gourmet snacking. You are never enough of Terra chips, once the pack got finished my hubby dear immediately ordered for more of Terra chips from Amazon. They are also available at Nature’s Basket, Big Basket and Food hall.

Experience these special and distinctive -Terra Chips, pleasing for the taste buds and fulfilling for senses, don’t wait and take this journey of good health.

Tuesday, 15 November 2016

Fail Forward

“I fell in a hard way
I smothered my life in a bitter way.
I cried and cried inconsolable.
All I wished was to finish off my story.
Those moments of sadness, anxiety profound
Failures are difficult not an easy acceptance
I felt the weakness and pain immense
I hid in a veil of false perceptions
Holding the sadness, not letting it go
Gripped by fear of something unknown
Feeling miserable can suffer no more”

“Good and bad are parts of life
The road is long with jerks and bumps
The journey we undertake depends on us
We can sulk and scream with disappointments immense or
We laugh and love and learn from our failures
Improvise our thoughts and strengthen believes
Failures are such, will never leave us.
They are the teachers the guide tough
Refine your thoughts and rise up.
We need to write our story with firm determination
Life is all what we make of it”

(Image - Here)

Wednesday, 19 October 2016

The Beautiful Bond

Some unspoken words

Some silent whispers

Some caring glances

Some subtle touches

Some and more of love entail our relation

Those eyes which speak of million promises

That heart which beats with thy name

Souls which thou bond with Ram’s blessings

For no force the strongest can break the union.

Karwa Chauth is a festival of love and emotions.  It celebrates bond of respect between husband and wife. Renewing vows of love and companionship is the real essence of this fasting. I have seen couples fasting as well as holding grudges with each other. Expressing love is the real spirit of this festival. No prayer holds importance with any malice in heart. Celebrating fast out of fear that something untoward will happen to your husband does not make any sense. If you want to do it then most important is faith in lord and love in heart. Fear should not hold any place in your life.

The real reason or significance of celebrating should be to promote values, love and respect to nurture the family bond. Seeing the present scenario more is the show off and added stress. The real significance is diminishing. There is always added tussle between generations. The older is not able to bend and newer is sometimes not able to adapt, creating a lot of friction. Both need to understand the real value of customs and traditions and move together. 
"Happy Karwa Chauth Friends"